Reasons are either several or few, doesn't matter, fact is - discomfort!
I love people, most would know by now, if there is one thing I cherish - its my people.
Being accused of thinking too much, caring too much or saying too much did not seem to affect me, what bothered me was expecting me to take responsibility to what others understand, Boss - wait a second.. I am responsible for my words and actions alone, not for your interpretations.
King & I had a good long conversation after a long time, we both could start from where we stopped, reason - we both realized that its fair to be away, to give space and even be angry.
Here is what I told him, and I'm happy that such a sane thought came to me - if one has to co-exist with another, alterations and adjustments need to be made, which will provoke anger. And, anger any day is better than ego.
I so believe in it, If I am mad with you, wouldn't you rather prefer me to come to you and express it, than bury it, but move away and create distance because my ego is not letting me be clear and candid.
Well this is debatable, it really depends on the subject -matter and person.
If I need the person, ego is distanced. If i don't, ego obviously prevails, for I can eliminate the person.
Life is the way you look at it, lies in the eyes of the beholder.
It seemed intense and complicated till i shed a tear or two, it then seemed easy. Now, I don't know, is Life really simple? or has it always been complicated, but we choose not worry about it, just brush it and assume easy....
All this, and much more felt heavy only because I did not know how to prioritize my thoughts.
It comes very naturally to me to put others ahead of me, I had forgotten the whole wonderful meaning of "me".
As I said earlier today in a conversation with Amar and email to Kambi - treating Bygones as Bygones, is helping me move ahead to see what freshness can be brought in to ease the "me" space.
Through out this journey of juggling my head with weighing words of wisdom, Raksha made me let lose and Raghu made think beyond, what would I ever do without him...
Its "me" time folks, so random thoughts in my head all flow down to my fingers to words here in front of you.
